Every Girl Hope to be the Star

Every girl also wants to be a shiny star.

I like to dress up myself. Because girls deserve to beautify themselves. i still remember when I was young, we couldn’t to buy many shirts or dresses, coz it really cost a lot. We just wore the clothes from relatives otherwise the clothes we bought we wore together. My shirt = my sis shirt too. Haha, I was not ashamed on this, it’s kind of memories couldn’t make by now.

When any celebration days, we would have a new clothes, we all were exited for that. I remember I got a green princess dress, an Egypt’s style dress, a Cheongsam…. Wao wao wao, I think now those dresses weren’t suit to me at all.  

Now, we have grown up. We have the ability to buy shirts, dresses to ourselves. The most important thing is we can buy it to our parent too. I love to see my mum wear the clothing that she loves. It’s kind of happiness.

Today, is Mothers’ Day. 0511. We kissed mummy and fed her well. This year I was bought a yet blossom Lilies to mum, coz I wanted her to see the most beautiful scene of this year mothers’ day gift.

I hope I can wear a light yellow dress and a 1’inch mint colour high hell and tie a half head of fish tail hairs to have a dating with all my dears. 

.I Hope There Are a Lee Yen Ling Beside Me

Today I was suffering in a back pain… I couldn’t move freely and comfortably. The pain was getting worse, even I sit on chair or laid on a half-position chair, its still pain. The pain tear me out. I cried, not only for that pain only, it’s also like scolding me why I treated others people well when they in needs, but how about me? Why u r suffering at here, but no one came toward to concern me, even though helped me massage? If my friend’s condition just like me, sure I will always be thr for her, I will help her to massage, I will treat her well, I will consider about her, I will think she first. I always be good to everyone who need my helps, why I don’t have this kind of people treat back me like that way?

I really think those people who can be yenling’s best friends or partners are so happiness. At least any celebration activities I will sing for them or gave a gift that I borrow from my sister. How about me? I didn’t receive any present at all… it doesn’t matter, by the way they are someone can borrow me…

Finally made a call, found mum is the best way .

Inconvenience Day of Today

      Don't u know that stucking in the lrt station and wasting my time for one minute and one minute again. It's so annoyed and also made me damn tired. They are a lot of homeworks and stresses on me.. it's kinda like suffocation.. my god. Damn it

Today I was backed home lately. Actually it’s already made me memorized the past…like I used to have best buddies study with me after school. I used to have friends accompanied me back home or took LRT, but now everything had changed. I studied alone at canteen and library. I walked to LRT alone… I’m not blaming I was alone, but it’s just made me so upset.

     All I hoped I could have the enough time to study or mean to prepare for my more 7days examinations. That is because I was not performing well in last time exam. Now I gotta to pay more efforts to do well in this exam.

    When I hoped I could rush back home early to bath and do more revisions, but the damn it public transportations brought a lot of inconvenience to me. It had been stucking at Bandaraya for almost 20minutes. And each station took around 5 minutes to arrive, The driver announced that the passengers who wanted get to Sri Petaling please to change platform, so I did stayed at LRT…Finally it dropped me to Cheras. Waiting again and again, it took around 2 hours then I just could get back home.

   That was my time. I was running out of time, but the world or maybe could say the government wasted people times.

   I was sorry about all my feelings. Because I also knew that today was having a heavy rain and continuously thunder sound… maybe the thunder made a lot of inconvenience to us.

It’s okay… Nevermind.

I hope I can not that easy to get mad anymore.

I do care for many things, so do I easy to get mad too.

Its' alright

Yup, I am hurting,But I am recovering now too.

Hating and Blaming not only hurt urself,

It also hurt the people u care.

People do always say,

“don’t bother to others comments,

Just be urself, just done well ur part.”

But do people really don’t care at all?

Do people really can live well so on….

It is not that easy to do.

It’s a task for me.

I clearly know that,

My life shouldn’t stop at my guilty and escaping,

I should be made a big change on me.

 But its tiring, hurting, and heavy.

Everything is gonna be alright.

I should remind repeatedly to myself…

Keeping think negative,

It’s a kinda like I am killing myself

I hope I can live well, smile happily, enjoy immediately,

Instead of I can start to make a change.

Dear Yen Ling,

You’re alright,

Please get back to own way,

Do the right things and make a right decision.

The Other Way

仿佛找到另一种生存方式。

做好自己，满足自己，微笑自己。

一个女孩不应划破脸的让自己变得更好，

让别人向自己划破脸也许会是另一种成长。

不是不卑微，

而是不应该什么事情都没分寸的不卑微。

不是不认错，

而是觉得我更值得对方的一个道歉。

不是要执着，

而是另一种保护自己的方式。

Yup, A Long Time No See

好久不见。

如果说现在迷上双眼，我最挂念谁？

我最挂念的是让我开心，

那个愿意做一切事情却不抱怨的我。

眼眶红红的，

不断的让自己面对现实的告诉自己，

我少了一份真诚与耐力。

好想有个人可以让自己好好的疼一番，

或是有个人可以让我为他担心为他忧。

至少我可以学会怎样关心他人来爱自己。

儿时盼长大，摆脱束缚，摆脱不愿意；

大时往后追，希望可以找回当初的淳朴；

老时只希望微微笑一切平安快乐。

18岁的青春本应该干了许多大事，

但我的18岁像是在漩涡里纠结。

现在的自己总盼望自己能快些长大，

摆脱现在很多连连续续的关系，

重新认识自己，重新建立自己。

也许走到大学，

路会更难走，如果依旧执迷不悟。

但至少去到一个全新的地方，

不再有过去的误会，

不再有过去的不快乐纠结着。

生活真的可以很简单，

我只想简单追逐与友伴郊游；

与友伴同欢畅，同享乐。

漫无目的的我，

走着走着把一切欲望摇身变成梦想了。

Don't be humble anymore

不要再卑微了

不要再搞砸自己了

总是体贴的为他人着想但是又不要尽全力

别人当然很自然的拿了就走

怎么会成为那个保护自己的人

怎么高三了，却没了当初的自己。

别人的生活越过越精彩，

我的生活怎么越过越迷茫。

走过图书馆很羡慕成群的读书伴儿；

走过咖啡厅很羡慕与闺友打交道；

走过球场街道羡慕有人陪着流汗；

坐在课室很羡慕吱吱不停的吵声；

流泪的时候羡慕有人把自己抱入怀里呵护；

家长日时多希望有人陪我逛校园；

别人这样的生活越来越充实，

我我却越过越空虚。

怎么了？伴我的伴儿们离开了吗？

还是我又在丢失了自己。

我总爱看日落，

因为那是坏的东西要消失的象征，

新的一天新的心情要来了。

可是，现在看在眼里的日落时灰色的。

像是迎不来蓝天白云的乌黑。

Maybe I am stubborn on something

But I clearly know what I am doing

I want freedom, but I had

I want concern, but I had

I want left, but I can’t

Am I too naïve?

Always think this world is peace for me

When I met someone who hurt me

I felt like so pain

Like I was suffering

I shouldn't too care about

How people thought of me;

I shouldn't stand at there

Do not move anymore.

I’m 18.

How dare am I still a little girl.

I should be an adult

Can take good care to myself.

But can I stay flighty?

I still hope to get others loving and caring,

Instead I also can love and care others.