Scattered Memories

seem like quite a while, never left any word in this memory place been clicking on my keyboard for so many words, but none of it about recording the amazing 4 months of stories. 5/4/25, 2025 1/4 has used up and past. not sure is a good thing, as drown into loving someone and at the same time pick up lots of challenges and changes on learning on not to be 1. time tick tocking.. Nic apperared when I almost thought of running out of meaning for living. Time with him, feel like.. totally different of me. None of the sec, dont feel like missing him. get more sensitive on being left out or being alone. The daily routine.. all the groceries.. no longer feel like buying for one. even those strawberries, or cherry tomatoes full of his faces..his smiles.. I used to feel gross on this act, but in a way, i told myself this probably a sign that emerging myself to a new life that "in a relationship" Everyday playing on our playlist name "lucky and sunshine". when music note fall into my ears..feel like we love each other more. Songs like stuck on you... I see the light... have i told you lately.. 心微微漾...this is promise you Each time listen back to those piano song that he played, me just melt down each time. I am so lucky having someone who put me first... treat me like a fragile item. He first time having a girlfriend, a partner, dealing with a lady who under his care, that so much unknown for him to discover. My uncontrollable monthly PMS, easily cry over all the small million things. my tear pipe alwasy turn into full blast when we met less than 2 hours, my forehead kiss didnt get chance to redem, when i push him away.. but each time, he will still patiently be there until my tear dried up and charged me up with all the loves and cares. we both are learning, all the in a relationship learning package. i guess the most challenging is time contribution. all my time used to scarttered around to different poeple. Me being greedy wanna spend all with you at the same time remain the same as usual, that impossible right. anddddd then me turn into self guilty mode again.. and you heal me again. I have so much to remember but all those pieces scarrettered in my brain different part. i barely can collide. I kind of needed some time to tidy up abit, and set up some life goal to live as usual at the same time juggle well time with you. With you, my man, my partner we talked about when its the time that upgrade our relationship to next level. We met each other family.but maybe when time that we be so freely and comfortable infornt of our family. Ideally if I can be confident one time bring them out for once, let them know that ur love one can share the same responsibily like you. If I can bring joy and laughs more maybe theres time that i meant for comfortable and freely. butttt u know what, we are on the way .. mid of progression. more and more travel moment. explore new moment together, along the way seeing how silly and careless of ourself and backup for each other. the world soooooo huge and needed so many pin point, but we managed to pin down Penang, Qingdao and more counting on. During travel, time that belong to us, feel like finally can spend each single sec with you, time that i dont even reply and connect with anyone else. coz all the moment i wanna share with you, who just next to me seeing the same thing as my eyes. each time when i fall sick being so vulnerable, you alwasy look after me, warm me up. thats the most priceless treasure that i ever have in my life. I alwasy feel so lucky to have you. you and i continue to work on our career okay ~ u try to bring less work to work at home. Me trying to pick up more roles and be a busy women haix.. so many memories flashing out, we have so much pending wishlist gonna build up as a moutain soon i knowwwwwww it sound like a very ramdom but not meaningful blog recording. but Baeee you have taken up all my space in my recent life~ u know?