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记录记录 I’m really glad I found you in this crazy world❤️ Just now when we were talking about inside out I really don’t know what came over me…. I think I was just too used to having my guard up all the time and you’re the only one I feel like I can be vulnerable with🥹 I’m glad that you shared your life experiences with me too, I can’t imagine how painful it must be to bring some of them up again… No matter what I’ll be here to hold you if you cry🤗 I promise that I’ll do everything I can to make us the better version of ourselves, and to make you feel like the luckiest girl in the whole world🥰 Thank you for being in my life Ms Sunshine☀️ ..... Omg you know when I listen to this song I’m reminded of our very first date at marina barrage🫶🏻 To me that was really an enchanting experience✨ Sitting together enjoying some good food, talking about everything in the universe, with the 毛毛雨 gently patting our faces and the city lights sparkling in the distance🥰 ...... You knowwww, I told my mum about us…. Then she scold me for not telling her earlier so she could get you something nice from japan😝 you see you see, she already taking ur side🤣 ..... Please don’t say you’re being naggy all that! I really love listening and reading your stories, I also get to learn more about you☺️ One thing I really love about you is that you have a deep appreciation for life, it really is an inspiration to me❤️ ..... Actually I’m very similar! On the surface I’m a very bubbly person, always with a smile on my face, I’m happiest when the people around me are happy too! But beneath it all I’ve struggled with self-doubt at times… The worst episode was in my 2nd year of uni, it got pretty bad and I was in a pretty bad state mentally… I didn’t even tell Mervin this, but I wanted to drop out of school… the person that saved me is my little gabby🥹 He would study with me, come my room and accompany me, and all these little things gave me strength to push on💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻 We all have our inner demons, and we need that special someone to help us overcome them.… I’m so lucky that I’ve found someone that has made my life sooooo much brighter, and gives me confidence to face whatever challenge life throws at me… Thank you too love❤️ I’m really happy that you took a step forward today☺️ 一步一步来, next time you go back I’ll be there with you to hold ur hand😊 ... Yessss, I would still wanna meet your family, even though the first time can be nerve-wrecking! But I think I’d be more excited than nervous becauseeee I get to meet the people who are dearest to you❤️ .... This Mr Lucky is also very very very lucky to have met his miss sunshine🥰 I wanna make the same promise to you, if you ever feel like the love from me is getting smaller, please tell me and I will make it big big big big big again🤗 Love you lotsss too my Miss Sunshine❤️ ..... Literally a long weeek and happening week, and I found a reason that my time gonna be not enough to use liaooo :) buttttt is a newwwww life practise again, learning on how to live as two. 💕 my heart nowwww need to juggleee two of ours heart 💓 mind 🧠 it’s a lovely habit to built up, I wanna make it become my new muscle memory again 🍀 Good thing about us, we just alike. Nowwww just need to do a good merging 😜 hahaaa, lets 携手合作，互相学习🌟 ..... I’m just so happy that come across with you. Anddddd thank you for opening uppppp for me tonight :) I loveee how shy you were… I suddenly become a dajiejie that kind. Hahaaaa Immmm totally not much experience on thissss but I guess with the right person I will notttt feeeeeeel any awkward. Insteaddddd we try it out and makeee it better each time! U saidddd ur heartbeat gooo crazy.. u must rmb the feelingssss can.. I wanna us even get old tillll in white hairs.. I wanna u still having this 心动的感觉 for me. That’s keep us going on. You never knowww met a right situation means how important to the person too. 💓💕 Love you small atoms ⚛️ ..... I love this! You know how I told you certain songs will bring me back to certain stages in my life, I’m looking through the playlist and these songs will forever make me think about meeting and falling in love with you🥹🥹🥹 ..... I’m grateful for everything you’ve done for me too loveeee~ I knowww I’m new to alot of things in this area, but I really wanna make you feel like the happiest girl on this planet🤗 Soooo…. don’t need to long anymore loveee, my heart is already yours, forever and always❤️ ..... Is WE become the better version of ourself by discovering the strength and weakness on each others :) SO WE are influence each other. Youuu areeeee not doing for meeeeee 💕💕💕 .... I interpret it as a song about love at first sight! It reminds me of you love🥰 第一次见到你， 看着你坐在风景的最中央，雨滴轻轻亲吻你的脸颊，乌云下跑开一束光，打在你闪耀的眼眶🌤️ 跟你在星星下一起分享美好的回忆，我的心微微漾， 就这样你识破了这一颗悸动心脏💓💓💓 ....

love languages

记录记录 I’m really glad I found you in this crazy world❤️ Just now when we were talking about inside out I really don’t know what came over me…. I think I was just too used to having my guard up all the time and you’re the only one I feel like I can be vulnerable with🥹 I’m glad that you shared your life experiences with me too, I can’t imagine how painful it must be to bring some of them up again… No matter what I’ll be here to hold you if you cry🤗 I promise that I’ll do everything I can to make us the better version of ourselves, and to make you feel like the luckiest girl in the whole world🥰 Thank you for being in my life Ms Sunshine☀️ ..... Omg you know when I listen to this song I’m reminded of our very first date at marina barrage🫶🏻 To me that was really an enchanting experience✨ Sitting together enjoying some good food, talking about everything in the universe, with the 毛毛雨 gently patting our faces and the city lights sparkling in the distance🥰 ...... You knowwww, I told my mum about us…. Then she scold me for not telling her earlier so she could get you something nice from japan😝 you see you see, she already taking ur side🤣 ..... Please don’t say you’re being naggy all that! I really love listening and reading your stories, I also get to learn more about you☺️ One thing I really love about you is that you have a deep appreciation for life, it really is an inspiration to me❤️ ..... Actually I’m very similar! On the surface I’m a very bubbly person, always with a smile on my face, I’m happiest when the people around me are happy too! But beneath it all I’ve struggled with self-doubt at times… The worst episode was in my 2nd year of uni, it got pretty bad and I was in a pretty bad state mentally… I didn’t even tell Mervin this, but I wanted to drop out of school… the person that saved me is my little gabby🥹 He would study with me, come my room and accompany me, and all these little things gave me strength to push on💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻 We all have our inner demons, and we need that special someone to help us overcome them.… I’m so lucky that I’ve found someone that has made my life sooooo much brighter, and gives me confidence to face whatever challenge life throws at me… Thank you too love❤️ I’m really happy that you took a step forward today☺️ 一步一步来, next time you go back I’ll be there with you to hold ur hand😊 ... Yessss, I would still wanna meet your family, even though the first time can be nerve-wrecking! But I think I’d be more excited than nervous becauseeee I get to meet the people who are dearest to you❤️ .... This Mr Lucky is also very very very lucky to have met his miss sunshine🥰 I wanna make the same promise to you, if you ever feel like the love from me is getting smaller, please tell me and I will make it big big big big big again🤗 Love you lotsss too my Miss Sunshine❤️ ..... Literally a long weeek and happening week, and I found a reason that my time gonna be not enough to use liaooo :) buttttt is a newwwww life practise again, learning on how to live as two. 💕 my heart nowwww need to juggleee two of ours heart 💓 mind 🧠 it’s a lovely habit to built up, I wanna make it become my new muscle memory again 🍀 Good thing about us, we just alike. Nowwww just need to do a good merging 😜 hahaaa, lets 携手合作，互相学习🌟 ..... I’m just so happy that come across with you. Anddddd thank you for opening uppppp for me tonight :) I loveee how shy you were… I suddenly become a dajiejie that kind. Hahaaaa Immmm totally not much experience on thissss but I guess with the right person I will notttt feeeeeeel any awkward. Insteaddddd we try it out and makeee it better each time! U saidddd ur heartbeat gooo crazy.. u must rmb the feelingssss can.. I wanna us even get old tillll in white hairs.. I wanna u still having this 心动的感觉 for me. That’s keep us going on. I love tonight. That our two hearts get closer. I love you more. I love to whisper surround you. I love you will just look me into ur eyes full of shines. Love you my loveeeee Anddddd yes don’t ever try to reply meeeee! Get sleep safe and sound 💕 ...... Love you more each day, my sunshine. Every time I hold your hand, or feel your warm embrace, I feel like I’m the luckiest guy alive🍀 I’m glad we took a step forward today💓 My heart only beats for you, forever and always. I love you❤️ Sweet dreams~ ...... in this universe I always feel like Faith and meant to be. You rmb I told you about Faith existing but also depend on how much effort you grabbing the chance. I truly believe that universe existing with everything possibilities. That why I love life full of imaginations Where today the exhibition really meant so much for me. You dare to think. It’s possible to happen, becoz if the longing. I always feel everyone is equals. I used to feel like we shall treat everyone from 100% score. If anything go wrong only slowly deducted the mark. But lots of ppl will say u should have a basic scores.. if better then add point if worse then deduct the person point. But actually I really feel like everyone under the universe well deserve with an equivalent treat at the first sight. No judgement.. no hesitation. Eveyrthing get decided again by howww the person’s interaction and behave. You never knowww met a right situation means how important to the person too. 💓💕 Love you small atoms ⚛️ ..... I love this! You know how I told you certain songs will bring me back to certain stages in my life, I’m looking through the playlist and these songs will forever make me think about meeting and falling in love with you🥹🥹🥹 ..... I’m grateful for everything you’ve done for me too loveeee~ I knowww I’m new to alot of things in this area, but I really wanna make you feel like the happiest girl on this planet🤗 Soooo…. don’t need to long anymore loveee, my heart is already yours, forever and always❤️ ..... Is WE become the better version of ourself by discovering the strength and weakness on each others :) SO WE are influence each other. Youuu areeeee not doing for meeeeee 💕💕💕 .... I interpret it as a song about love at first sight! It reminds me of you love🥰 第一次见到你， 看着你坐在风景的最中央，雨滴轻轻亲吻你的脸颊，乌云下跑开一束光，打在你闪耀的眼眶🌤️ 跟你在星星下一起分享美好的回忆，我的心微微漾， 就这样你识破了这一颗悸动心脏💓💓💓 ....

尼克乐斯

 28岁岁末，我好像遇上了一个让我处得很舒服。不想错失的一个男生。

他的出现，很刚好，他的热烈，他的细心，刚好磨平了我现在的不安。

好神奇，我愿意让一个人对我输入关心，然后只想给他满满我的笑容。我的欢乐。 

我也希望，他和我一起的时候，是最幸福的。在他身上，我看到了他眼里，是珍惜有我的出现的。那一份真诚。是一段，我会自己抓住的幸福。

17/11/24 （日） 

我们相约野餐式的见面。那一天，我们仿佛聊了一个宇宙。

我很感恩遇见了，待人如待己的你。 第一天的真诚，我暖暖的收在我的记忆里。 

后来的你，满满的分享欲，用歌传递故事。

字行间，你纯粹的真诚，是最难能可贵的。 

满脑子很多点子的盘算下一次的相约，和安排妥当的担当。 

27/11/24 （三）

我们在一个弥漫着约会气息的餐厅里，点了我最爱吃的瑞士火锅。

那一天的我，稍微的害羞了。 因为你的大方得体，你的傻傻的害羞很可爱。 

我们去唱了歌，你不懂歌曲却跟随者和着音。我的心只有满满的感动。 

我把亲手画给你的卡交给你。你笑着的，很感动的看着我上了末班车。

浓浓睡意的我，等到了你，暖暖的感谢信息。那一次卡片里，我写了想与你创造更多回忆。

3/12/24 （二）

我们正式的去了一个烛光音乐会，一起听着我们彼此喜欢的宫崎骏主题钢琴曲。

那氛围下，不带紧张的害羞的两个人。我们在情侣中拍了合照。

你搭着我的肩，我只希望你可以不松手的就握着我。 微暗的灯光下，多希望我可以凝视着你。

我们随后去了我们喜欢的哈利波特主题咖啡店。做了情侣会做的事

我们互相交换了企鹅这可爱的摆饰。真的好暖。 

你和我说你已经想好了，再下一次要带我去哪里。 

我只想说，两个人是双向奔赴的。我只希望你也被善待。那是我最大的期许。

希望我们为期26个英文字母的游戏，可以慢慢的帮我们升温。 

我也希望，你是我跨越重重，释手不放的人。

是我想太多。

 继上一次，终于人生有所变化，我的想法也有了一点的persistent

我离开AH了，不仅仅只是WARD4， 还要是AH 这整个几乎我踏入也没有我地位的地方。 

我成功的做到了一场自己出发的solo trip

我变了PR？ 我做了很多决定？剩下的，还是我。 

到底为了躲开而离开 vs 真的到时间抽离 两个说法那个会更好？

我知道离开需要适应，我只是在适应。也不可以把当初恨不得发生的一切，换成现在一句哀哀自怨，别人眼里的你活该，早知当初。 当初是你自己的选择。 

我没有后悔说真的，我只是脱离了，但没有得到理想的。简称贪心吧。

我知道的就算我再爱nursing，继续待在那边，有一天不爱了，也是一样的结局。

是我说的，不到处转转，怎么知道什么才是自己要的和适合自己的。 

面子这东西，留给别人，真的有回应吗？不是变本加厉吗？

我买一个耳机，也可以遇上一个让我等上四个小时的人，我却依旧在等，我在委屈自己，还是证明这个世界每一个人都可以被原谅？嗯，我还是在委屈自己，因为童话故事，八点档桥段不会发生在我身上。我在等奇迹？ 有需要别人耐心的人，总遇不到愿意原谅和包容自己的人，而愿意包容原谅别人的人，却不断的遇上不懂得珍惜一直刮取我们的善良的人。世界真矛盾。多一分自私不好吗。每一次狠下心的时候，都觉得也许这个人不一样，他也许真的有苦衷。才发现我才是那个让坏人有持无恐的人。本来就这样，人爱欺负愿意被欺负的，自己就被更坏的人欺负自己。 

眼泪在眼眶打转了无数次，偶尔我看开的时候我笑了，偶尔我觉得委屈上头的时候，觉得自己干嘛这么傻，生气的时候，却突然为对方想好无数个理由来被释怀。正如我这份新的工作一样，我很庆幸自己不再是负责人，不需要扛着这么重的责任，却偶尔又觉得自己又好像一个窝囊躲着，参与不了“大人的”世界。

最近不想回答的问题，也许是，你最近怎样了。

因为我自己也不知道，我觉得我在压抑着，我语塞的话，几乎我是找不到词汇填充这个，问答题。因为坦诚面对那个真实的答案，我觉得很丢脸吧。我是一个很麻烦的人，我知道。喜欢一个人又讨厌一个人。总爱推开所有凑近的关心，但又不断的渴望自己也有关心。 

其实我真的允许任性的，你知道吗。我是允许不需要顾别人的面子的人。我可以允许不需要很厉害，犯错的你知道吗。我是允许继续探索世界的你知道吗，明明，是你自己和自己说，live everyday like ur last day，要是只为了面子而忍着，卑微求存，那是你要的样子吗？为什么你就不可以理直气壮。两个月后的你，的的确确自由身，为什么，就不可以无情？

整理好态度，我才可以好好的工作。

否则满满的委屈堵着我的胸口，你说，那还能快乐吗？

目标是设给自己的，把它当作一场探险，闯关，你就好好的过关斩将，闯到final关，学好一身武艺，洒脱的转身走人，这也不就是你现在做着的事情吗，只是因为上层是你看不起的人，所以你才做到了狠心。你又顾过他们的颜面吗？一样的道理。说到这，估计又要问自己，我又有多少个六年可以耗，明知道这不是我的终点站。哎哎哎哎，暂时先这样的负面吧。

一切真的还言之过早。还没把这本课本学完以前，我的目标真的只能只有一个。 不要想太多。