message to myself

hey tho, i have nothing to talk about, but just feeling like wanna start typing out what come across.
currently just out my head under in-charge of final year project video filming. it was like director, narrator?  funny thing was just realized been trying hard to work in team.. i mean, ya group work is good, but some how just idea been delivered and no one care about it..or been used to that people need to follow according mine? or either i follow them? its terrible if cant suit myself into others. its like non productive work seh..
its a must to learn listening and thinking whats wrong whats right. and have a good decision making in a rational phase. being a leader i dont think i am that material, but surrender myself to do good my task i will be a good choice of follower or working partner. ha perhaps.

nothing just happen out of the blue, its just my mind shut on so sudden. and lead me to feel overwhelmed. the workloads, the worries, the responsibilities just like mountain that kind can suffocate me.

i have no idea i been put myself in what position, what kind of attitude to making things right and good, but i must make it clear to myself that, i must make some flying color on my task, at least done it perfectly with my best effort.
so dear lee yen ling, u better listen clear now,
now itsnt a game or a dream. u have to take action, and push urself hard and move move move. pls just say no to stop, later, give up or any damn suck words. u have to be the one that u like to put in effort and doing good things, and impressed people that kind.
i never and ever allow u social loafting from ur grp work and either ur video. do something that u want, no something a homework only. do something big!